So, it's been awhile. I go back and forth between babying and abandoning this blog. And I am just having a bad day.
Most of it, is just that I am in a bad mood. It's difficult to be in a good mood when the person you live with is always in a bad mood. And it's difficult to be in a good mood when you feel like your life is crumbling all around you. Nothing goes as planned anymore, and I am not sure how much more of it I can take. And on a bad day, it's just the icing on the cake when your children decide not to listen, not even once.
I have to go back to work next week. The cheer season is going to be starting up full swing. But I am stuck in a bad position. I have to be at practices, but I also have to drive Adam to and from work each day and to and from Fort Wayne twice a week. So, I am either going to have to quit coaching, or Adam is going to have to quit his job. Neither is a good situation. I can't be in two places at once. And I am getting seriously stressed about it. I don't know what to do.
I talked to a lady from Headstart....it's basically the preschool for the needy. And we are in strong need of this program. The school I want to send Alex to, we can't afford. But I was told that Heacstart will base qualification off of our last year of income. Well, if they do that, then we won't qualify. Why do they base it off of what we were making a year ago?? We don't have that income any longer, we barely make more than half of what we were making a year ago. So we will not be able to send Alex there, and can not afford to send him to a different preschool. I can not afford daycare for Alex while I am working next year either....we are in quite a pickle.
And it's all I think about all the time. I am stressed, and it just seems there's not a damn thing I can do. I snap at the kids. And the kids misbehave, so I snap at them even more. Just at my wits end.
Monday, July 23, 2012
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Crazy weekend!
It has been a crazy weekend/beginning of week!
On Friday, I took the kids to the pool, they had so much fun as usual. And I took the opportunity to sit and chat with a friend I ran into. I am so glad the kids are both old enough to be in the pool and not need me hovering over them the entire time (don't worry, I still kept a very watchful eye on them both)!!
Meanwhile, a huge storm front rolled in, so we had to leave. What happened next didn't seem like much at the time. We packed up and went home. I learned later on that the tip of the storm is all that hit our rinky dink town, but further south...chaos ensued. I massive storm went through that still (4 days later) has left friends without power and have forced many out of their homes until the threat of downed power lines can be neutralized. This is hard for me to imagine going through with temps in high 90's and low 100's.
Saturday, I went to the lake with the fam! It was fun and exhausting at the same time. We left in the morning and spent the entire day fishing, swimming, boat riding...but best of all, hanging out with family. However, I would say my favorite memory of the day was taking each of the kids kayaking. They loved it, and I got a great upper body workout!!
Sunday was actually pretty uneventful until later in the evening. My mom wasn't feeling well (she had been in the hospital earlier in the week). She had many symptoms of a heart attack, so I went to the ER with her and her fiance. The ER doc ran some tests and determined that she was NOT having a heart attack, but was kind of stumped as to what was causing all of her problems. SO he admitted her for the night. The kids and I went up to visit her on Monday, and they had a blast. My kids are weird like that and really love hospitals. But I can't blame them when our hospital has a totally awesome (and relatively unused) play area for kids. Anyhow...We think they finally figured out what was wrong my mom, and have it under control. She seems to be feeling MUCH better today. :)
A plus about today....I got to help watch my little teeny tinybrand new 2 month old baby niece. While mama took a nap since she had to work third shift.
I am hoping for an uneventful tomorrow; however, as I sit here I am remembering more items on the to-do list. Maybe I can find some time to incorporate a few things from our Bucket List.
We have no plans for the holiday, but I hope you all enjoy your holiday! What are your plans? Any fun traditions?
Enjoy your week and please keep those without electricity or access to their homes in your thoughts!
On Friday, I took the kids to the pool, they had so much fun as usual. And I took the opportunity to sit and chat with a friend I ran into. I am so glad the kids are both old enough to be in the pool and not need me hovering over them the entire time (don't worry, I still kept a very watchful eye on them both)!!
Meanwhile, a huge storm front rolled in, so we had to leave. What happened next didn't seem like much at the time. We packed up and went home. I learned later on that the tip of the storm is all that hit our rinky dink town, but further south...chaos ensued. I massive storm went through that still (4 days later) has left friends without power and have forced many out of their homes until the threat of downed power lines can be neutralized. This is hard for me to imagine going through with temps in high 90's and low 100's.
Saturday, I went to the lake with the fam! It was fun and exhausting at the same time. We left in the morning and spent the entire day fishing, swimming, boat riding...but best of all, hanging out with family. However, I would say my favorite memory of the day was taking each of the kids kayaking. They loved it, and I got a great upper body workout!!
Sunday was actually pretty uneventful until later in the evening. My mom wasn't feeling well (she had been in the hospital earlier in the week). She had many symptoms of a heart attack, so I went to the ER with her and her fiance. The ER doc ran some tests and determined that she was NOT having a heart attack, but was kind of stumped as to what was causing all of her problems. SO he admitted her for the night. The kids and I went up to visit her on Monday, and they had a blast. My kids are weird like that and really love hospitals. But I can't blame them when our hospital has a totally awesome (and relatively unused) play area for kids. Anyhow...We think they finally figured out what was wrong my mom, and have it under control. She seems to be feeling MUCH better today. :)
A plus about today....I got to help watch my little teeny tiny
I am hoping for an uneventful tomorrow; however, as I sit here I am remembering more items on the to-do list. Maybe I can find some time to incorporate a few things from our Bucket List.
We have no plans for the holiday, but I hope you all enjoy your holiday! What are your plans? Any fun traditions?
Enjoy your week and please keep those without electricity or access to their homes in your thoughts!
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